off to paris till saturday (: land of gorgeous ppl, chanel, balenciaga, macaroons, foie gras & meandering cobbled-stoned streets dotted with chic little french cafes & bistros. what's not to love!

wan jun is the happiest happiest girl on earth (; rachael yamagata was BLOODY AWESOME!!!! she's so friendly, sweet & genuine. she made the effort to hang out in the pub after the concert, talking to us, signing stuff, taking pictures and all that. omg. and she was bloody drunk, she kept giggling during the gig. but she was still pitch perfect and so damn good. her voice is just amazing. died and went to heaven (((((: she's coming back in london. for 'over and over', i will go again :D

she just sings out the feelings you feel, yet could never find the words to put it together to express. my heart ached with a mixture of happiness, pain, heartache and so much more when she sang the songs that has formed part of the soundtrack to my life (:


took most of e shots in black and white. just cos the set was just amazing for black & white shots.


the set at monto water rats. so small so intimate so lovely (:


rachael (:

at the keyboard


HAHA i snatched both alan pownall & rachael's song list for the concert. got her to sign hers too :D wj is happy!


rachael! teehee. (titus in the background)


us doing crazy faces! awesome no?


mel darling (((:


chor ming (:


oh and guess what. i got new eyecandy. HAHAHA. alan pownall. he sings beautifully (: though i think he thinks i'm abit of a stalker now. snorts

it feels as though the london i live in now, is so different from the london i used to visit. no more prowling through the million bookshops, feeding pigeons in trafalgar square, squealing with delight everytime i walk into harrods, visiting buckhingham palace and all that. and while i look all the places i've discovered over the past one half years. it felt really really good to revisit all those historical and iconic areas of london again. did buckingham palace, green park, south ken (crepes + snog), knightsbridge, harrods and korean dinner today with mel.

awesome (:

oh how i've missed being with mel all the time.

god, i'm so tired. my eyes keep shutting as i sit here at my table trying to vommit out my EU JR essay. the whole bloody outline is out alr, and yet i don't even have e energy or attention span to finish it. damnit.

yawns. today was a really fun day actually. a sudden visit from an old friend yesterday. talking, lame jokes, catching up, SHOPPING! gosh, i've forgotten how awesome it is to shop with you. hahaha. got gorgeous stuff, some of which i've posted on my new project. which is basically a combination of my fashion-loves, lifestyle cravings, lust lists and so much more. heh. anyway, out of e 5 things i got today, 3 were men stuff -.- hahaha. two scarves, a pair of AWESOME shoes, my gorgeous bf blazer and an adorable soft like cotton tee with a rabbit on it. haha. then went to chinatown to satisfy someone's duck craving -rolls eyes- OOH i got beard papa on e way though. teehee. i happy.

anyway. the trip to the hague was really bloody awesome. we went to the international criminal court (icc), where the thomas lubanga trial was going on. you could see him sitting in the court room! we met the chief prosecutor of the icc, luis moreno-ocampo, which in itself was way awesome. though there was some _______. and we went to the sierra leone tribunals and the yugoslavia war crime tribunal. sat in on various trials. went to the peace palace, sat in the actual courtroom of the icj though there was no trial. haha. the passion for int law in all the ppl there was fantastic. to see the ppl who are doing the things that i've always wanted to be part of was just motivating. haha. loved it.

the people on the trip with me were awesome too (: esp tsuki, charmaine, ken, anish, janice, jeanne and jingxuan. plus all the rest. bloody fun. visiting delft with the gorgeous canals and winding streets, seeing all the beautiful architecture in the netherlands. visiting my first Coffeeshop (with a capital C), going to the infamous red light districts (HAHA), doing crazy jumpshots in the middle of nowhere. it was so good so good.

pictures tmr. sleep now! mel's going to arrive tmr! YAY!

my new project: wanderinglove

please visit!

i'm trying something new. and i'm trying to keep at it. cos there is just so much i want to share. of how i feel, what i've seen, what song i've just heard, what i need, what i'm lusting for. haha.

fuck i'm so sleepy -.- and i'm only like a quarter way through my eu jr essay. gah. -yawns- cup of coffee, can of diet coke, and still not working. this is bad.

i think too often ppl take for granted what is constantly there. you see but you don't look. you look but you don't appreciate, or perhaps care. and its painful. its the feeling of transparency.

there are certain roads where there are no u-turns. like a highway. go up, and you can never turn back. even if you try to get off the highway, you can never go back to the same road, but rather you get on a different path, that instead of taking you onwards like the highway would have, leaves you going around in circles in the same area. wasting fuel, wasting time, but not getting anywhere. and then when you finally get back on the highway, you find that you've missed this whole chunk of time where everyone has moved on, moved beyond you. and all you've got left is this empty feeling of loneliness and being a stranger in a strange world.

so like jay chou sings.. let go, so that you can walk on further

i'm back from e netherlands (: went to the hague and delft. the whole trip was bloody awesome. but more the activities and ppl, rather than the place itself. though i must say delft was extremely charming. and the hague city centre was gorgeous when e sun decided to come out -.- haha. will blog more soon. very sleepy, and i have a little visitor later. hahaha.

two more days till mel is here!!!

hmms. i can't stop thinking of the summer of 2008. and what a bloody awesome summer it was (: everytime i hear the songs that i had on loop that summer. the feel of the heat, the sight of london-ers sprawled out over an open area basking in the sun, milan, venice, florence, ashraf, lydia, jerrine, rachel, christine, marseille, paris, mummy, taiwan, cass, ming and so many images keep flooding my mind (: oh that summer was love i tell you. hahaha. i hope this summer turns out like that too :D

greece greece greece!

3 fashion capitals within one month. paris, london, newyork. oh goodddddddddddddd.

balenciaga spring summer & christian louboutin boutique in paris. gah. i want ): and e only reason why i'm willing to spend in euro is cos they always have exclusive designs in paris.

london. the pound rate so shit -.- i want to buy damnit.

newyork. HAHAHA. this gonna DIE. one weekend with kal is going to swipe me clean. snorts. marc by marc jacobs, alice + olivia, ALEXANDER WANG, and oh so many lovely american designers. DIE I DIE I TELL YOU ):

too many ppl read my blog -.- this is disturbing.

anyway, happy valentine's day my loves (: in singapore, usa, uk, canada and australia.

its the day to celebrate love (: all kinds of love. haha. i love my friends! grins.

just that i'll be spending e day studying. snorts. ah wells. gotta get those bloody essays done before i leave for amsterdam early monday morning. doinks.

i will reward myself with a lovely lovely jap BL movie tmr night (;

do not despair

i really REALLY don't understand how some ppl think sometimes.

1. why would you ring 'flat b' and ask is this 'flat a'
2. why would you think 'flat b' could be 'flat 1', when there is so obviously a 'flat a' ahead of it
3. why must ppl blare their radios so bloody loudly that i can listen to the news every morning at 6 from outside my window
4. i do not understand why you need to have the bass thumping loud enough to shake your car as you drive along
5. i don't understand why ppl see the need to get so angry over the smallest things sometimes (like waiting for 5 min for a shop attendant)

sighs. as you can tell, most of it comes from being permanently glued to my chair by my desk which is by my window -.- sad.

oh and i must say.. brits have a rather limited amount of creativity when it comes to their cussing & swearing. cos i live near a pub, so i hear alot of tt at night. and basically it goes along the line of this

man 1: FUCK YOU!
man 2: no fuck YOU!
man 3: fuck ME?! FUCK you!
man 4: fuck you BASTARD!
man 5: FUCK!

try imagining that with various tones -.- there's only so much i can do with caps and punctuation.

this picture is (((((: hahaha. total classic (y)

sometimes until i get cass saying smthing typically cass to me. it doesn't feel like i'm home :p

i love you friend (: even though you try and throttle me everytime i try to show you some affection -.-

WHOOOSH :D i'm going to watch my first football match in uk! LIVE! hehehee. while its not a man utd match, and no baby.. its still ENGLAND :D and its a fifa world cup qualifier too. haha. against ukraine. we're sitting near e corner. SO WHEN ENGLAND TAKES A CORNER LOOK OUT FOR ME!!! hahaha. going with joyce, kenneth, hongmin & justin. woots.

today was a pretty lousy day. cold wet & not happy -.- but yeh. its over. hahaha.

god the ppl having sex upstairs are shaking my windows & curtains, and its a rather annoying constant thumping sound -.-

growls. i hate libraries. really really hate them. i find the smell rather horrendous too -.- and i searched for like half an hour & couldn't find a single copy of my int law or eu law textbooks. wtf. and lse library has rats -.- brilliant.

can i just say how AWESOME the fray was last night ((((: hahaha. i was practically in tears from happiness. they were like 5, 6 feet in front of me :DDDD and 'how to save a life' acoustic live. omg so bloody good

[edit] i think its very important to have good taste in life. there's no point being god damn beautiful if you wear the ugliest things. neither is there a point in being filthy rich and covered head to toe in logos. what would be the point in life if you could not appreciate & savour the best foods the world has to offer. or why invest so much money in a space when you can't even call it a cosy warm home. life should be about the senses. luscious smells, bursting flavours, breathtaking sights, heart-stirring music and the velvety touch. i try to live mine like that. with my senses and my heart [/edit]

oh i am so thankful, so thankful that angie's in uk (:

anyway, busy few weeks coming up. THE FRAY ON TUES :D teeheheee. i've got dinner at home tmr night cos its chu 15. pizza on weds. benjamin button with angela possibly on thurs. amsterdam on mon :D and then MEL'S COMING ON E FOLLOWING SAT!!! :D happiness is MINE. rachael yamagata together + chor ming on e tues. and then three weekends from now we'll be in paris. AWESOME.

(i always find it so funny how my dad picks up my lingo just to erh keep on e same wavelength at me. HAHA. the first time he showed me something and asked me 'AWESOME ISN'T IT?' i was just 0_0 stunned speecheless. funny!)

i just need to get down to booking my nyc flights -.-

I'm a hermit in my own head

上を向いて歩こう
涙がこぼれないように
思い出す春の日
一人ぽっちの夜
上を向いて歩こう
にじんだ星を数えて
思い出す夏の日
一人ぽっちの夜
幸せは雲の上に
幸せは空の上に
上を向いて歩こう
涙がこぼれないように
泣きながら歩く
一人ぽっちの夜
思い出す秋の日　
一人ぽっちの夜
悲しみは星のかげに
悲しみは月のかげに
上を向いて歩こう
涙がこぼれないように
泣きながら歩く
一人ぽっちの夜

We're not the same dear
As we used to be
The seasons have change
And so have we

Oh lover, i'm lost
Because the road i've chosen beckens me away
Oh lover, don't you roam
Now i'm fighting words I never thought i'd say

Only love is all maroon
Lapping lakes like leary loons
Leaving rope burns --
Reddish ruse

i sometimes feel i've embarked on this tortuous, perhaps unnecessary journey in seek for something that might never exist. its a road with no end in sight. so at which point do you decide, enough is enough. and stopo walking. and find another path? too early and you might might miss the ending that's hidden around e corner. too late and you might be stuck on that path forever. no way out.

oh i suddenly miss my mummy & daddy so much ):

sighs. i never knew how much my dad missed me till yet would tell me about all the funny things my dad would do :p and i never realised how much i've become like my parents. the cooking and all that i knew i always followed my mum. but the nesting habits -.- seriously. and omg, the anal, ocd packing, cleaning and everything. EXACTLY LIKE MY FATHER. even the hoarding habits are just like my dad. hahaha. the irony of it all.

i must say what i really like about my parents is tt they never snoop. they just take my word for it. if i tell them something, i do. they never try to pry (y)

i hope we do a family holiday again somewhere in summer. maybe australia? my dad so loves australia -rolls eyes- he studied in monash. i don't mind going snowboarding. teehehee. but see how. see how. i'm definitely heading to japan with angie, and then with my mum. just cos we love japan so so much :D can't decide if i should do the north-eastern regions like iwate or okinawa with my mum. she hates e sun just as much as i do -.- hahaha.

time is passing so damn quickly. gosh. i'm into my 5th week of lent term alr 0_o the year's more than half over. and while this is probably gonna be the longest i'm away from home, 5 months :p but still its just passing so damn quickly. i wish it'd slow down abit actually. for me to just pause and savour e moments.

damn. sch didn't get cancelled. dragged my tired arse through e frigid freezing weather for one useless comm contracts class. what a waste of time. sighs.

sometimes, too often, we look but we don't really see. and we see without really looking. you become so accustomed to how things ought to be, or the moulds that certain ppl fall into. that you don't stop and inspect everything. to the point that you miss out on the simple pleasures and joys that are just around you, or you overlook the importance of someone near you..

i'm so sleepy -.- sighs.

its too cold this weekend to go anywhere, i'm staying in to study. blearghs

hello rachel. where are you friend? i miss you. more than i miss takashimaya, kinokuniya & akashi (which is a mighty hell lot).

[edit] its snowing outside now ((((: i could sit here e whole night watching e snow come down. its lovely, when i'm not stranded in an airport

oh i hope school gets cancelled. TEEHEEHEE :D [/edit]

OMG WATCH THIS :D HAHAHAHA. TOTALLY AWESOME I TELL YOU (: this nonsense quirkiness is why i love london. and did i mention i adore liverpool street.



teeheheee. now watch this! (it was really filmed in liverpool street. bloody awesome. i wish i auditioned damnit)

eeeks :D :D :D :D :D MING GOT KINGSSSSSSSSSSSSS! omg. this totally totally made my day. haha. i hate this time difference thing. otherwise i'd be ringing her up and telling her how bloody happy i am alr. gah.

but other than that, my day was pretty horrid. growls. stupid black cabs had to go protest at trafalgar square. causing this MASSIVE jam. so annoying. and it was cold and wet and slushy out. grumbles. i wish it would snow or stop raining alr. this in-between stage is disgusting.

but at least i got my oil heater to keep me warm this weekend. seeing as how its going to be horrid again -.- its massive though -.- weighs like freaking 10 kg. thanks dad. he and his insistence on how i must get an oil heater. sighs.

i'm sleepyyyy. still not recovered from e nonsense sleep debt i accumulated in dublin. sighs.

love you angie baby (: so happy for you.

oh, and all the love in the world for my lovelies who kept me from going insane in dublin airport (: you know who you are. grins.

こんばんわ。みんな、おげんきですか。　わたしのにほんごがままです。　examｓは　９ｔｈがに　あります。　ｇｇｘｘ。　らいしゅに　べんきょうお　します。でも、らいしゅに　lawの　ともだちと　amsterdamの　hagueの ICCに　いきます。　それから、melは　２月２１日　着ます。そして、ふたりは　parisに　いきます。　doinks. ok, i have no clue if all that is correct. hehh. miss pro-japanese-girl-angie want to see if i wrote correctly :p some i anyhow put together one. snorts.

will you watch this movie with me ming? teehee. 'i love philip morris'. for ewan mcgregor :D grins

i can't believe i'm jealous/envious of a silly childish little girl. what a stupid little girl. while i don't exactly want what she has. i wish someone could look at me the way her someone looks at her. the way that someone wants to take photos of her. that every moment she breathes is special. is a magical moment. i see a few like that. in awe, in joy. and because i do feel that, i am grateful enough.

sometimes i really think if i did vanish from e face of e earth one day. no one would notice for quite awhile at least. because of the way i've shut myself in these few years, because my heart is spread out across the world, in singapore, in london, in michigan, in san francisco, in nottingham, in cambridge, and so many more.. i feel like i'm living something of a fragmented life. its been diced and carved into many little pieces. some larger, some smaller, and i don't feel quite so whole anymore. and its like everyone has to come home, or i have to go around, to pick them up, and attempt to sew them together again.

and while i don't regret (i try to never regret) the way i've lived my life these few years. hell i've been happier than i've ever been. there are (albeit rare) moments of desolation. like when i was sitting in the dublin airport, watching this belgian boy taking photos of his girlfriend sleeping and this spanish group of friends trying to get as many seats together & cuddling together so that all could squeeze onto e seats and sleep.. the feeling of loneliness struck me harder than ever before.

but its something that we all have to go through right. being alone. for most of us come into this world alone, and in e same we leave. e feeling strikes me. it stings, it definitely does. but i don't fear it, nor do i hate it. its just there. and though it might get me down. i wouldn't change it for all the things i've got to experienced, see & lived. its a consequence i'm willing to take (:

i'm not the kind of girl who will be happy to live my life as a form of reaction to my significant other's life. call me independent or selfish. i just can't see myself living like that. and i never have.

too many musings. though i must say they aren't really angsty musings. just contemplative ones i suppose.

can i just say again how much i love my life here. the whole stuck in e airport escapade. handling everything by myself, makes me so incredibly proud of how independent and self-sufficient i am. and i love that about myself. it also made me realise how i can sleep soundly anywhere, everywhere -.- in whatever conditions. snorts.

slept a total of like 24 hours in like 26 hours today. hahaha. only woke up at 7 to check email, eat something and then went back to bed again. doinks.

hmms. but there's something about my life here that seems so temporary. its the whole, 'i'm only going to be here for a limited fixed amount of time' mindset, that has me to charged up and ready to do everything while i can.

more pictures of dublin later. and of e snow in london. heard its going to snow again this weekend. wheee. better go get my heater though. haha. don't want to freeze to death.

sighs. i fell head over heels in love with dublin (: bloody awesome!

wan jun has the best fucking luck in the world -.-

i am now stranded in dublin airport (second time i'm stranded in an airport might i add) alone. and i can't fly back. because it had to SNOW in london, and all the airports are CLOSED. why thank you whoever who is up there who is seriously fucking with me -.-

GROWLS